I think i'm going to start writing in my xanga again.
I need/want somewhere to write again. Myspace is too overrated these days.

So things have been good.
I have changed alot. Not good, not bad.

I'm stepping out of my little box.
I might be trying to hard, but im trying.
i dont think i can grasp the fact, that people might accept me for who i am.
i'm so afriad they wont.but you never know until you try./
but so far no body hates me.
maybe im lying.

New years is rolling around. Another year gone. thats so trippy to think about.
Another year i can't have back. I'm gettign too old.

I miss being young. Christmas wasn't even good this year. I remember i used
to love Christmas. Oh well. Life goes on as they say.

I still can't believe im'm graduating. I need to get a grasp on things
before i step out into the world fully.I dont think im as prepared as i think i am.
To tell you the truth im scared shitless.

I dont want to grow up. I really dont.
Not saying being a teenager is that great. But im comfortable.
I think everybody is most comfortable here. Not a kid, not yet an adult.

I still havent found a man yet. But see im ok with that cause i hate being tied down.
I'm just looking to feel loved. But Jesus loves me. I know i know. But as independent as
i think i am, i will always need at least one person to depend on. I carry too much for this family.
I need someone to help carry me.

My family is screwed up. Haha but honestly....who has a "normal" family. Nothing is ever perfect.


I'm sick and tired of people exspecting me to be perfect. The perfect friend.
Always saying the right thing, never "back stabbing" them...blah blah etc etc...
But seriously, its going to happen.
get over it. Forgive and forget.

I realize this is really long. But nobody is going to read it. Who gets on xanga anymore.
I wish people still did. Myspace has taken over the world. Seriously.
Tom....nice job.

Let's see, what else can i talk about.

I have been thinking alot latley.
about everything. I like thinking. Expecially when i drive.

i think im good for right now.
i'll be back soon.

have a good one.

So xanga pretty much died.
poor xanga.

I think life is good.

this is my last week of summer.
thankyouband.

I'm ready for school to start.
I know, i'm weird.









love.